hi thar.

I've officially recognized my failure at updating, in case you didn't realize (like ten months ago, literally). Urm.

I'm not promising to come back atm even though it's summer; I kept putting off typing an update because I wanted to write something about Mock Trial + FanimeCon 08. I mean, I will eventually; I have to. But right now I don't have the time.

And by the way, sorry for the sporadic change in tone throughout this post; the cheerful parts are my attempt to lighten the mood. . ________. Sporadic spazziness... I

In short, Mock Trial finished at the end of March; we placed second in state (FORK YEAH), losing to a bunch of "immoral, scripted, blonde Catholic hobags", but as a friend said, we were the clear moral victors. ♥ Like actually; everyone hated that other team. :D Bahhh; I still miss MTT like heck, but the only thing I can wait for is next year I guess. (Although half of our team will be gone. And our coach will be living in Ireland. And we still don't have a replacement. So she might be our cyber-coach apparently...) And yeah. Short choppy sentences that all end in periods. This isn't me-like.

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Ummmmm, Fanime was at the end of May, and it was EPIC LOVE, seriously seriously so. I miss everyone! [ moo ]

And, uhhhhhhhhhhh what elseeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee~

I applied for this summer program (some film class + Trial Advocacy, which is like MTT... shocking, I know) at my dream school Columbia and GOT IN, but my parents aren't letting me go this summer! :[[[[[[[[[ It's really expensive and I'm hoping they'll let me go next summer instead, but nothing's certain. So I started taking multiple classes in photography & fashion at the Academy of Art (yes, that school that sucks money out of your pocket and spells D-O-O-M-M-M) last week, but we got a phone call two nights ago from my uncle.

Basically, my grandma isn't doing so well; the doctor said we have like... limited time to see her, so my family's flying back as soon as possible (aka tonight) to go see her. It's just really, really awful; all my life I've never been able to really get to know my grandma, and I was planning to spend an entire summer with her to do so. And from what I've heard she's just an INCREDIBLE person that everyone in the community loved, seriously. And she hasn't been doing well for the past few months so I was planning to go back to Taiwan alone this summer to see her, but my parents wouldn't let me go overseas for that sole reason... so I found this volunteer program over there, but I didn't get in (because it was age-based and I was like the youngest T_T), so I couldn't go to Taiwan. Which was devestating because I wanted to go back for so many other reasons too (haven't gone back in three years, wanted to go fob-shopping/hairstyling, wanted to see relatives etc), to the point that I'd have dreams multiple times a week about going back, literally.

And now that I really am going back it's bittersweet since it's for the wrong reasons. And just, agh. Sorry for ranting; I just found a reason why I've missed Xanga so much; I can talk however much I want about myself. (Conceited, I know.)

Blagh, I'm really sorry for being all sad, it's just a hard phase I'm going through right now. I'm basically posting here to tell you guys I'll be gone this month; I have to be back by August (going to San Diego with Athena) so I'll probably be in Taiwan for a bit over a month. Yeah.

Uh. I'll try making a photoblog when I'm in Taiwan! :D

Last time I went back, Xanga was my only connection to the US, basically. I can even remember the layout I was using... it was called like 'Wishing Upon a Star' or something and had stars for navigation, and it was a picture of a girl sentimentally looking through a window. (err.) And it wouldn't load in Taiwan! The HTML was all funky and the CSS just wouldn't function or something.

I found the posts from ancient times just now.

__oh god ; I don't even know.
__POMBAKA! ; OMG, that's back when we gave our crushes code-names, although we kind of still do. Except I loathed "Pombaka", that was a guy that my friend liked...
__miserable? ; um
__stomachache ; aah god, that was a HELLISH week of sickness. ew.
* omg KAREN, lol: "oh, and for the record, i CAN dance, i am OBSESSED with dancing. xD lol i am a dancer. um in case you didnt get my post, i`m starting this hip hop class with a few friends and yeah, jealous of their ability to move their body =X"
(bahh, I dunno if she reads my Xanga anymore but that just brings back a wave of nostalgia. because I actually remember reading that & being like, 'aghhh why is she so COOL', haha.)
__Full House ; omg, first post. so this is where the obsession began...

And that's it. Dang, it's funny to see how much I've changed (and not changed) since then... I don't use as many smileys, but I'm still incoherent and immature.

I miss having Piedmont friends talk to me, like Elaine and Karen and stuff.

I was talking to Stephen the other day and he said the first word that comes to mind when he thinks of me is anime. And I was like =O='''''

Like honestly, I follow like. Two series. I stopped being an "otaku fangirl" in like mid frosh year. Like yeah, I cosplay, but nowadays it's more for the sake of making clothes + doing photoshoots + meeting famous people, than like, being a fail geek. And I've already converted into more of a k-drama/Asian culture-ish girl than anything I think.

BLAH.

Oh right, back on topic:

brb taiwan. :3